Vestige of my mind

And here we go again

2010-02-06T00:28:00.003+02:00

School began again yesterday and it waas fun to see classmates again! Though i liked the on-the-job-learning it was nice to start normal school again. In January i was stressed out all the time and now when I think about it - it was quite unnecessary.. But at least I got a good grade! (grading scale 1-3 and I got 3! )

Sunday i'm going to ship cruise (Only vocational school students). It's just one huge party, people in silly costumes, people wasted and lot's of fun! My only worry right now is MONEY.

Lets see how i'm going to survive rest of the mounth after the cruise....

......

Minelle

Grr

2010-01-11T18:11:00.005+02:00

How can someone be so stressed out?

There are some many things i need to do that i feel like there's huge weight over my sholders and i'm slowly crushing under it. I just want to lay down on my bed and stay there a week. Always when i have too much to do and think i just can't do anything. Today would have been very good day to do some school assignments or some to-dos i got from my on-the-job-learning-place.. But what have i done? I have slept all day! (Maybe because i slept only two hours last night cos' i could not get sleep.. But what ever.) And STILL i'm writing this and don't istead do anything sensible.

Why Why Why..

I really need to stop this whining and DO SOMETHING!

Now playing:
Faith Hill - Somewhere down the road

Something new!!

2010-01-07T00:32:00.006+02:00

HAH

I just did something i'm very proud of!!!
I sent an application for rent-apartment! I'm going to move on my own!!

This is something i couldn't believe six months ago... I just said that i'm happy living with my dad and his wife but things are little different now. Nothing bad isn't happened but i just think i need to go my own way and learn to live on my own.

Just a moment ago i looked around in my room. It's furnished just the way i want and it's cosy with all old wood furniture, brown walls and red curtains. I have to admit that i brusted in tears and silently plaing Carry Underwood's "Don't forger to remember me" didn't really help my situation :D It's quite sad that all of us grow up..

This is a big step but i really think its worth it! It's time to turn page in my life! :)

"I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead,
just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye."

Carry Underwood - Starts with Goodbye

Btw! On Sunday is my 19th birthday! Let see how i'm going to celebrate.. :)

In a picture is Me and my dog Ippu :)

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2010-01-04T22:44:00.003+02:00

Sometimes i wish i could move to some little island somewhere and live there all by myself.

Sometimes people are so difficult..

Hello new year! :)

2010-01-02T03:47:00.006+02:00

I spent my new years eve with my best friend Minttu and her little baby boy Leevi! :)

This was my first new year without my family but it wasn't so big thing after all. We just played with Leevi, watched a movie and i ate so much that i got stomach ache.. :P
And at midnight i phoned someone special :)

I made few new year promises:

-I don't smoke at all in january (except my b-day! if i like i to smoke i can smoke few cigarets) but i aim that i don't smoke at all.

-I start to jog or go to gym besides the horseback riding

-I stretch to a split

-I'm going to be more hardworking with my studies

-And i'm going to somewhere in foreign countries to on the job learning (Hopefully to England or Australia)

So there's little bit something to aim to! :)

Let see how i'm going to survive this year!

Oh and one thing!

My friend promised to buy me a TATTOO!! As a christmas and birthday gift! (about 80€) Wooow... I have about a week time to figure out where and what kind of tattoo i want.. Shit... :D

Goodbye year 2009!

2009-12-30T00:10:00.012+02:00

Daylight

I must wait for the sunrise

I must think of a new life

And I musn't give in

When the dawn comes

Tonight will be a memory too

And a new day will begin

Cats - Memory

It's been guite a year. I have been very busy, especially this fall! I hope year 2010 will be just a LITTLE bit easier than this year..

But now I have to blaze..

I just LOVE musicals!

Year 2008 christmas i got Cats-musical and i have watched it so many time i can't even count.. This year I got Andrew Lloyd Webber The Royal Albert Hall Celebration - DVD.

Now I have watched it almost TEN TIMES! (Sometimes I just listen it same time I do something. Like right now :D ) I have seen three Lloyd Webber's musicals (Phantom of the Opera, Cats and Jesus Christ Superstar) but I want to see them ALL!

And i'd like to see them in theatre or at least some of them! And of course I have to see them in english which means I need to wait till I go to England some day.. But I believe it's worth waiting for! :)

Happy New year 2010 to everyone! :)

Love Minelle

It's been a while.. again

2009-11-28T01:11:00.007+02:00

I have to be honest. I totally forget this blog for a long time. I have been very busy this fall and lot's of good thing have happened to me and at the same time i have been soooooo stressed out... Too much things spinning around my little head. :) And other reason i haven't written here is.. well.. i don't know if anyone is reading this.. (If someone is please show me some sign ;) ) But that's ok! I like writing this still. It's nice to read it later to myself.

Ok...

How are you today Minelle?

Well, i think i'm fine. I have spent few day at home because i got sick and I think i REALLY needed those few days at HOME. I have been going going and going everywhere and all the time I've had something to do! Ok i just spend a week at Canarian island called Fuerteventura but before and after that my life has been such circus. It's been so relaxing to be at home all alone and just listening christmas music, reading book, sleeping and watching tv and thinking of NOTHING!!! :) But now i think i have had enough of this relaxing and i'm healthy enough to do something worthwhile. It's time to get out of this house!!

So, tomorrow i'm going to be bouncer in some youths band-event. :) And monday i'm FINALLY going to start my on-the-job-learning! Wohoo! I'm so bored at my school right now! I't so nice to think i don't need to go over there in a while.. And finally i can do some real job again! :)

Ok, now i think i'm going to sleep.. Hopefully i write soon again!! :P

Love Minelle

2009-07-12T16:57:00.004+03:00

Oh it's SO wonderful that it's summer!

I have been quite busy this last month and till this day i have worked in a café and i have been a leader in children's camps. But now i FINALLY can relax next three weeks! :) I think i'm just going to watch some movie and read "Pride and Prejudice".

Now playing:

Elton John - Tiny Dancer

River Flows In You

2009-03-18T00:33:00.006+02:00

My best friend just send me some Yiruma's (pianist from Korea) music. We both liked.. I mean LOVED track called "River Flows In You". We got a same image in our heads:

Summer night just before dawn.

Morning dew on the grass and tree's leafs.

All you can hear is wind, trees and quietly my cd-player plays "River Flows In You"

We both sitting in my family's garden and drinking tea.

Neihter of us say nothing. Track ends and we just listen to the quiet morning wind and look how sun greets the new day...

We started to dream about summer and desided that she will come to my place for a night and we will make this image true. Oh how i wait summer! :) Beautiful night and sunsets...

Please summer come soon!

18!

2009-01-10T00:38:00.005+02:00

OH MY..

Now i'm officially adult!

I've been smiling since 00:00 am.. (now 50 minutes)

I think i just can't write anything.

My head is empty right now! :D

Yesterday

2009-01-06T00:24:00.006+02:00

Yesterday i saw "Twilight" in the cinema. I think all the girls thought after that "where is my Edward?" (including me!) Oh, it was marvelous movie!!

Pattinson took me by suprise! When i first heard that his was going to be in Edwards part i was disappointed but yesterday i just fell in love with him! :: DD

After several problems in my trip back home, i finally found myself at home middle of woods. (Oh god i hate drunk and chatty men and busdrivers who don't actually know where they're going...) Sky was cloudless and far from streetlamps stars looked just amazing as always. Oh love our new home!

Inside the house i started planning my birthday party with my dad. :) We are going to sushi-restaurant somewhere in Helsinki and the to one of my dads favorite bub when his was young! That's gonna be iteresting... : D My brother, dad, dad's wife Minna and my godmothers Nina and Tiina are coming with me. My brother Mikki told me that they are trying to get me so drunk as they can..

Let see much i remember that night when it over! : D

Now I need to figure out what kind of party i want to have with my friend. AND WHERE!?
waiting for stroke of genius..

Now Playing:

Sturm und Drang - Indian

Paramore - Decode

Paramore - Fences

Paramore - We are Broken

Carrie Underwood - Don't forget to remember me

Lets start

2009-01-01T06:12:00.001+02:00

Can u believe this?
Minelle is writing a blog?

Ok, lets start this nonsense!
January 10th i'm gonna be 18 years old! Who could ever believe that? Just a few moments ago i learnt to read and how to calculate 1+1. Where the time goes?
Right now i just wanna be that little fragile girl who sang Lion King movies songs in our backyard twelve years ago...

In this pic is me, 9 (right) and my friend Roosa, 8 (left). :)

In the Circle of Life
It's the wheel of fortune
It's the leap of faith
It's the band of hope
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the Circle, the Circle of Life

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Happy new year 2009! :)